Today i had my last lecture as a university student. as of today, i am no longer a carefree uni student anymore. i have heavy responsbilities on me now. i need to earn money and start supporting my mother. its so surreal that i am gonna be an undergrad. i studied for 18 years just for this one day. actually, i am not looking forward to the ending of it.

many friends asked me how does it feel like to have the last day of uni. and i told them i dont feel anything. i think thats coz i didnt appreciate it. sigh. i am so gona miss these days when i go back to that sunny island. everything here is good. the weather makes people happy. the air is fresher. the people are friendlier. the shops here sell better things.

how i wish that i have the courage to stay here and work here. but.. i have so many constraints on me that i cannot make the decision that i truly want. sigh. lets just wait a few years and see how things go. i dont want, i dont want to have a normal working life from 8:30am to 6pm.. and to squeeze with everyone in the MRT every morning and evening. and after work, go home, watch TV and sleep. i dont want to only look forward to weekends. i dont wanna spend the rest of my 30 years of life like that!

i shall work hard for my last 4 exam papers in uni. hope you guys are doing well there!

xoxo,
san.